up in the middle of the night.

[barbtries]

I was sleeping just fine then I had a dream of my son. We were on the phone and he said, "I have bad news," and I immediately opened my eyes with that dread in my stomach feeling - that was 3 hours ago. still up.

last night it was my grandson on the phone and he said, "Can I come in?" and I realized he was standing at my door and I woke up torn whether to welcome him or not.

The grandson is the fear. He's living rough, has an addiction disease, and is not living near any of us. Constant worry that while I'm awake, I avoid thinking about a lot of the time in order to remain functional and not be hounded by my helplessness to help him.

sometimes writing it helps to alleviate the fear and clear the way for a restful sleep.

sorry if this is the wrong forum.

[Easterncedar]

1. Sorry for what you are going through, Barbtries.

I hope you are getting some decent sleep now.

[Duncanpup]

2. Hugs Barb

My D.M.is open.

[barbtries]

6. thank you Duncanpup

[2naSalit]

3. I had a similar dream...

in the past few hours. Not my son, my would-be son, actually my nephew... I was in a strange situation in the dream, I was warning him of some danger, it wasn't specific but we were in a wooded part of northern California for some reason.

I woke up, tried to get back to sleep but got up a half hour later.

I did have a trying text conversation with a dear friend late last night, I have made a major decision for my future and she doesn't like a big part of it. It's not an easy choice I've made and I've taken my time in making it but I have to do it and it means a larger distance between us physically. It's hard for both of us. The rest of my peeps are happy about it, even with the distance. Might have contributed to my weird dream.

I hope you were able to get back to horizontal and sleep some more.

[barbtries]

4. I'm still awake.

gonna feed the dog and pass out, I think. hopefully we both have better dreams!

[2naSalit]

5. And...

More restful sleep this time.

I often wake up too early but have to get up for a while. A couple hours later I go back to bed and sleep better than I did earlier. Seems to be a thing with aging, I guess.

[barbtries]

7. i do the exact same thing.

not usually up from 1am to 8am, but often up for a hour or 2 to take care of the dog, look at DU, play games, go back to sleep.

[Marthe48]

8. There's a lot of profound anxiety

I've had times like that. Mainly because I'm at a crossroads and I don't know what is the best thing to do. Hard to set aside a situation where a loved one is suffering. Your subconscious works on it, even if you think you're involved in other activities.

There are groups for people who have loved ones with addiction. This is a government site. If you don't have support for this, maybe you can find something that will help you get through this. Good liuck

https://www.samhsa.gov/families

[Skittles]

9. try to be available for your addicted loved ones

but DO.NOT.ENABLE, never enable

I know that can be easier said than done.....

[barbtries]

10. that's exactly where we're at

and it is really hard. I just try to make sure he knows how much I love him and I'm here. He's on the other side of the country.

[Skittles]

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