Ifeel bad I didn't come sooner back to this site. I reread my posts and oh there were some much more

[debm55]

I could have posted. The odd thing is that reading it back that night, I felf embarassed. Maybe that's not the word to use but I cried. And yes I did want to die. My husband took me to the hospital and I kept saying mommy kiss me. they put me on Sedate and I came home. Next morning I found myself with a sheet wrapped around my neck. Didn;t tell husband, but told psychologist. I have been working on my polymer clay jewelry. I haven't posted on the Lounge, because my posts are stupid. Keep me in your thoughts.

[Dr. Shepper]

1. Sending healing energy your way

[debm55]

2. Thank you, Dr. Shepper

[Tetrachloride]

3. Every month, I reevaluate the coming weeks.

I don’t worry a lot on past posts.

hope this helps

[debm55]

5. Thank you for your words of advice, Tet

[Karadeniz]

4. Thinking of you... Take care...

[debm55]

6. Thank you. Karadeniz

[hamsterjill]

7. Just sending a hug.

Some days are just really hard. I’m sorry you’re going through this

[debm55]

8. Thank you Jill. I' m feeling better today. Made some jewelry this morning. Got a good night sleep

without nightmares.

[OldBaldy1701E]

9. No one's posts are 'stupid'

Excepting for a few who want to impress that they have way more brains than the rest of us. Which is always entertaining. You can express yourself when you feel you should. That goes a long way towards helping one figure out things.

[hunter]

10. I reflexively ignore the "way more brains" crowd, including my wife and family at times.

Can't claim that ever turns out well.

Every doctor and other medical professional I've ever suffered has probably considered me a difficult, non-compliant, patient.

Mr. AMA, Against Medical Advice.

My last doctor's appointment was like Oh, look what the cat dragged in.

Refill his prescriptions and send him on his way.

I'm not proud of that.

At the very least I know that about myself.

[irisblue]

11. How are you doing debm55?