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Related: About this forumAhh... another 'holiday'...
Will it be worth the moniker? Doubtful. I will be alone for much of the day, because my hubby has to work. I am becoming even more decrepit and feeble and when I see his greying hair and the way he seems so beaten down I just want to scream and destroy everything. Fuck being told that doing the right thing was the way to be. Why was I not born a complete asshole? At least I could cover my holiday blues with fake friends and partying because I would have money. But, as the saying goes: Nice guys finish last. Of course, I might add that some barely clear the starting line. Regardless, another year of being reminded that I failed and really have little to be thankful for. Before everyone flips out, Yes, I am thankful for my husband. I am thankful that, even though we live with a spoiled little rich boy, we live in a decent house (barely) and have a few crumbs of assistance to fall back on. But, it is in these moments that I have to look back and ask: Was my dream that impossible? I was not the one crowing about my supposed talents, everyone else was. Did they ALL lie? (My idea of this answer has changed somewhat of late, as I am now convinced that maybe they all did.)
Sorry, I should stop before the floodgates open. So I will say I hope everyone has a decent enough holiday, regardless of whether you participate in the actual traditions.
MLAA
(18,653 posts)And one backatcha.
flying rabbit
(4,775 posts)OldBaldy1701E
(6,478 posts)A return one for you.
OldBaldy1701E
(6,478 posts)I did make an error and had to back up but I was not trying to make two posts. Wild.
hunter
(39,004 posts)If nobody has replied to the double I'll self-delete it, but when somebody has already replied that seems rude.
I'm not a person with many regrets and I'm not sure why. Possibly, following the theme of this holiday, it's because I'm thankful (and a little surprised!) I'm still here.
Today is going to be a noisy, chaotic, and stressful day, more than this autistic spectrum person normally tolerates, just one more reason I dislike the holidays. I'm certain to disappear a few times, but hey, here I am, in the quiet before the storm.
OldBaldy1701E
(6,478 posts)Nobody else likes it out there and once the Minnesota winter hits, they really don't. I have the place set up so I can handle the temps. Plus, doing little things always clams me.
debm55
(37,398 posts)noise and chaos.