Finally went to a dr. yesterday and got antibiotics... so hopefully I'll be back to my obnoxious self soon!
I am focusing on the PRESENT, which is really all we have anyway.
TODAY, I am healing, and actually managed to do two "chores" that I'd avoided all week.
Woke up at 6am, had a bowl of cornflakes so I could take another amoxicillin, and then slept till 1pm!
Now I have managed a little more food and meds, got some "herbal tinctures" delivered, so I can soothe my nerves and ease the aches.
I posted my wands pictures and offered to sell and make more on a couple FB groups, so I can keep my creativity flowing.
I might go ahead and take the rest of the uyear off school. I feel like we will all have a better idea where we stand once Summer rolls around. And then If I need to sell the house, it's prime time.
But any "planning" is something I am stopping my brain from worrying about, otherwise I get overwhelmed and spiral.
I'm going back to 1999 web behavior. Treating it as a novelty, and living my life in REALITY as much as possible. Stay out of the fookin Matrix, man.
In the meantime, when I feel better and have some OOMPH, I'm going to focus on using my wisdom and talents for the resistance and finding my community on the ground. I shouldn't have to feel so alone...
The word for the week is Healing, and that can ONLY be done by being PRESENT/HERE/NOW...
I'm gonna go breathe and listen to some vibrational music 
Thanks for the hearts! And as always, thank you DU Family for just allowing me to wallow in the hopelessness we are all feeling. I am humbled and reminded that I still have much more than so many others, so I can check my privilege too 
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We have NO ide of any outcomes because the probabilities and energies are always shifting. ALL we have is NOW.
...so today I cleaned out the fridge and took a bag to the garage, got the trash out of my car while I was down there. That's it. no big decisions. My job for NOW is healing.
The idea of unplugging is a collective thing, we were told it in 1999/2000 and soon it became ironic that we all turned into the phone and got trapped... I am attempting to reel myself BACK mentally to that 1999/2000 mentality, when the internet was just a novelty. And when we walked out of our house, we left the computer behind! We were in the REAL world! My phone will be for emergencies and music only when I'm out... I deleted all games, etc.
I am attempting to stay right here. and not making any BIG decisions until the world shows ME what is gonna happen... I can't sit here crying over milk that has yet to fully spill
(I think one of my ancestors thumped me on the head while sleeping lol...sounds like my southern g-ma)
