I'm sorry. Thank you all for being kind.
My family of origin and some other people bullied me for a few years on-line.
Then shoved it in my face and laughed at me.
I know they’ve always been abusive and actually criminal, I think several of them are psychopaths and several others are addicts, so they have their own problems, and their way of feeling better is to tear me down, because I escaped the sick family system.
I’m struggling with trying to not let the judgement of the bullies, become my own judgement of myself.
I would never do to anyone, the cruel things they have done to me. Never, never, never.
My DH said tonight, when I told him I thought I was worthless and didn’t deserve to live, that the whole time he has known me, over 33 years, I have always gone out of my way to help others, give to others, sacrifice for others.
He said I’ve always worked hard at everything I have ever done, and I’ve succeeded at quite a few things I’ve set out to do. This in spite of several fairly severe illnesses including multiple sclerosis.
He pointed out how my bullies have been failures in their own lives, over and over.
And that I should not let those people pull me down into the mud with them just because that is what they want to do.
It’s so hard to overcome a childhood of being abused, and then having those same people join in to abuse you again as an adult. And laughing at you after the fact because you mistakenly let them hurt you again.
It’s hard to keep your head held high in the face of all of that.
Thank you all so much. I’m sorry for worrying people here or annoying people.
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family member. Not putting up with the others’ pettiness, arrogance and immaturity. It is them who are messed up with no hope LL, not you.
