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Related: About this forumsleep disruption sucks
i haven't had a good night's sleep since tuesday and it's starting to really wear on me. can't get tired, intense dreams, waking up crying at least once and more tears when i get up. i wake up feeling like my heart has been smashed with a hammer.
i'm sure it's chemical in nature as i've been vaping rather than smoking for just over two weeks and have dialed back my already limited mj consumption. those have been the only changes i've made and it seems to have finally hit me hard. on top of that, i'm experiencing more physical discomfort than usual (i'm just a pup, but i've manged to smash the crap out of myself) and the emergency vicodin doesn't touch it. the ativan doesn't slow me down and tea at bedtime doesn't get me where i want to go. that discomfort, i'm sure, is a symptom rather than a cause.
it's a lonely hour and my eyes are tired, but nothing else is.
A Little Weird
(1,754 posts)I struggle with sleep issues as well. Melotonin often helps me - I usually take it at about 7 or 8 pm and by the time I'm ready for bed, it seems it helps make me sleepy. Your situation sounds a lot worse than mine, but melatonin's a pretty cheap, OTC option so it might be worth a try.
fizzgig
(24,146 posts)had to call off work yesterday because i was such a mess, wound up napping off and on and then crashed for 12 hours. i had some melatonin in the cabinet, so i just washed one down with some peppermint tea to keep myself on track.
it's so hard when you can't sleep, it wears on you so badly.
A Little Weird
(1,754 posts)I hope you can get back to a normal sleep routine!
a la izquierda
(11,908 posts)I'm in the midst of a deep, deep depression. My doctor recently switched me off Zoloft and to Remeron, which helps. But I have gained some weight in only a week, which won't help my depression. The sleep issues make the depression worse.
I feel your pain.
fizzgig
(24,146 posts)med roulette sucks, so does trying to balance the benefits and side effects. i can only imagine how it's compounded by the sleep issues and the psychological effects of the weight gain. i really porked up over the holidays and wound up in tears when i tried to buy new pass.
i don't know that i can offer you any advice that hasn't already gone through your mind, but i wish you well. iirc, you do cross fit, right? is the exercise helping at all? getting out in the sun, even to just sit for a few minutes really helps me.
be as good to yourself as you can be and remember we're here
auntAgonist
(17,257 posts)I have struggled with insomnia for most of my life. It's now to the point that I'm lucky if I get 3-4 hours sleep a night.
My husband loves me tremendously and I know he worries about me. I can't seem to make him realize though that his insistence that I "sleep and put everything out of my mind.. you have to sleep, just close your eyes and relax " only makes it worse, or so it seems.
I've tried melatonin it doesn't help me. I drink no caffeine herbal tea only so I know it's not a caffeine thing. I've been a light sleeper forever. When a fly farts, I hear it.
Anyway, I DO hope you're doing better.
kesha
i'm back on track now. the dreams are still there, just not waking me up as much. i have been taking my ativan before bed, so that might be a factor and my dad gave me a few of his sleeping pills as a fallback in case it starts up again.
i was short on sleep a lot as a kid between constant nightmares and a body clock that is incompatible with the normal world. the nightmares have gone away and my job is conducive to my natural sleep pattern, so i fare better now. it still pops up from time to time, though, especially in times of stress and this has been a major time of stress for me. but i'll keep trucking along, same as i ever have.
it's good to see you and i hope you are well
mopinko
(71,911 posts)finally getting good sleep, for which i credit increased mj smoking. killing my pain, too.
fizzgig
(24,146 posts)the mj works wonders for that. husband doesn't want to smoke any more, doesn't mind if i do, but won't be able to not to if it's in the house. i'm trying to come up with a solution, but haven't yet.