I am feeling pretty numb today. Depression sucks life.
Too sad to feel much or do much.
Heat & humidity, aren't helping.
I set the timer on my phone, and managed to work in my kitchen cleaning up for 10 min.
Yeah me I guess.
I will be calling on Monday & beg to be readmitted to the local mental health services, cause I can see this is gonna be dangerous if it keeps on.
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Would going to a movie help?
I know what you mean, the heat/humidity sickens me greatly. I almost passed out in Safeway yesterday only to come home to this POS parked along side my house blocking the sunlight from entering it.
It is a 60 ft. long trailer that is c. 1970. The owner moved it alongside my place of residence while I was at the doctor yesterday! I called the sheriff and they could care less! 
I am so angry and sick I'm wishing for a quick end to the miserable life I am living.
#mssucks ... oh don't you know it!
Went to see that last week to kill time between doctor appts. I did not like it at all. It was loud and bang bang bang bang bang every 2 seconds.
As for the POS alongside my house, I am beyond angry.
I was out there photographing it, etc. and the chickenshit that owns it was hiding out in his hidey hole of a dump house. Fucking prick!
No rights I am told, none at all! 
I wish I was well as I'd go over there right now and tell him to move the POS to the front of HIS house and HE can look at it all day and have no light in his house!
If you are looking for a movie, even youtube has a lot of good ones and they are free of course if you don't feel up to going out.
As for me, I need to clean up and treat the various fungal infections growing on me. Oh what fun this is NOT!!!!!
Life fucking sucks & that is NOT depression, it is reality! 
the street in front of his place because at some point they dropped down jacks
Good luck I remember how pissed he was. Of course the asshole doesn't want it in front of his own place....
I will nail this fucker if it is the last thing I ever do in life believe me! 
so to speak.
Anyway, gone thank god. Who need another outbreak of shingles?
Off to bed for me. I went *poof* for a few days because enough was enough!
*whew* & and a for YOU 
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Found out you cannot park something like this within 100 ft. of an intersection. It was 20 feet away.
It was cutting off accessibility to my property in the case of an emergency. An ambulance might not be able to get in. I've had to call an ambulance before and it was a bit of a chore so a gate was installed in the back which was being completely blocked off by this POS.
This weekend it was photographed and documented by the county officials, all of it, and wow are the powers that be ever pissed!
As present, it is now parked in front of another person's home across the street from where I am.
The guy that owns this piece of crap is a greedy little prick. Nothing else to add except that it is gone gone gone thank god for that.
Pays off to do some research! That is for certain!
indeed!!
I'm not so depressed now.
I hope you are feeling a bit better too!
Sort of like that old saying, "Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all."—Dale Carnegie
And so we do it seems eh?
Glad I did not listen to the naysayers out there. I went forward and found the answer I needed.
Too bad that the powers the be don't seem to know how to read/interpret the vehicle code! Idiots! 
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On edit: it is gone now so I have deleted the photograph of "it".
60 feet of this POS not including the truck
Legal? How could this be legal in a neighborhood?
Princess Bride works wonders too, if you have it.
I hope you are feeling better.
When my husband, of blessed memory, was in the depths of clinical depression he was unable to listen to music. I hope this is not the case with you, and am sending you something that always lifts my spirits and gives me a little glimmer of hope wherever I hear it.
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Please stay in touch with us. Hugs.
I've been there.
I've been hospitilized.
Believe me. It's been bad.
After the proper medication I've hardly ever felt that way again.I've been able to be a parent. To live and enjoy things..again. this can happen for you.
If your on med they have stopped working. This happened to me with my first meds. Worked for six years then stopped.
If you don't take medication you probably need to.
I can say this.
I refused meds for far to long.
I suffered.
Don't allow another day of suffering.
I'm glad to see you acting.
I've been pretty good since I've found the right medications
In 1999.
Occasionally you'll still get depressed. Anxious. Happy.
But it's 'normal' again.
It's hard for me to believe I was the way I was.
Good luck.
