Well it's been more than 6 months since Mom passed...

[FirstLight]

I'm glad I went to hospice for grief counseling, it's been a huge help. I was so depressed the first 2 months I could barely eat or sleep, the dr ended up giving me anxiety meds just to "take me down a notch"

I talk to mom all the time though. Knowing she's my personal guardian angel has really helped with missing her....BUT there's still those moments.

Was in the drive thru a couple blocks from their now empty house and John Denver "Take me Home" came on the radio and I ended up sitting in their driveway bawling and singing at the top of my lungs. I had been avoiding their house, because she is everywhere...the art on the walls, the tchochkis, just HOME. I had no plans to go there, but I got out and went to see if there were any roses left on her bush and tried the front door, it was open!
So I got to go inside alone, cried on her pillow, smelled her clothes, grabbed a couple pairs of tacky costume earrings that will remind me of her.

...and just yesterday, I called dad at Memory Care and when I got off the phone I had to just cry. I miss her voice! So much.

Anyway, just wanted to share. It still stings, and Christmas is gonna be a bitch.

[MLAA]

1. Sending you hugs.

[WVGal1963]

2. Oh my heart....

Your post is so heartfelt and meaningful! How I wish I could wrap hugs around you right now.

[Deuxcents]

3. Keep your memories close..they will help you thru missing your mom

My mom died a week before Christmas 20 years ago this year. I still hear my mom in my heart and I hope that never goes away. It’s not painful anymore n at times funny n I even admit to..ok, you were right! Hugs n best wishes for you and your family 🌺

[magicarpet]

4. Focus on the happy times you shared with your Mom.

Hugs from this direction too.

[blm]

5. I feel you. It's tough.

Are neighbors caring for the house and left the door open?

[RainCaster]

6. You had a wonderful relationship with your mom

You should feel good about that, and remember those wonderful moments.

[FirstLight]

7. She was my protector and advocate through so much...

through single parenting she was my backup...she was the one who talked dad into buying me a house so I wouldn't be screwed by renting, she fought teachers when I was a kid, and let me stay home sick because she knew I wasn't ok...

She is STILL my best guardian but damn, what I wouldn't give for one of her hugs

[jfz9580m]

8. I understand your grief

I lost my mother to cancer 2 years back. In November it will be two years exactly.

She had a great oncologist, but multiple myeloma in your seventies is not easy.

I still miss her.

[irisblue]

9. Sending you hugs