I wake up and my mom isn't there anymore.

[Tabasco_Dave]

My mom died a month ago and the worst thing for me is waking up. For 10 seconds everything seems normal when i wake up but then i realize she's gone. I dreaded going to sleep for 2 weeks and i usually got about 4 hours of sleep a day. I can sleep longer now but i hate waking up.

[auntAgonist]

1. Dave, I'm so sorry for your loss! It's never the same is it? So often I wish for the past ..

Hating what the future looks like without my Mum.

Waking up and facing the day is keeping your Mom alive in your heart and memories. You can share your remembrances, your heartache and your joy of a life with a Mom who meant so much to you.

The new normal sucks big time.

I'd love to be able to tell you that it gets better but I think that I'd be lying. It doesn't get better Dave, it does get different though.

You'll go through your days eventually, doing things that don't include your Mom. You'll make new memories, life (even although we hate it) does go on. That's the last thing I wanted to hear after my Mum died. It used to make me so angry to see people having fun, laughing and carrying on like nothing happened.

I hope that you can get into a better sleeping pattern. Good rest will help with the confusion, sadness, grief and anger that you're probably dealing with at this point.

Thank you for checking in here. There are many many people who care in this group. Please, come here often and vent, cry or share your memories. We are here to listen.

aA
kesha

[orleans]

2. i just wanted to post on this thread too (and kick it)

and say:
i know.
i remember.
same thing happened to me.
those devastating moments when reality settles in.

[PasadenaTrudy]

3. Yep

I think of my sis first thing when I wake up in the morning. She's been gone 3 1/2 yrs now. I still want to call her to talk. I still have a huge hole in my life. Just know you are not alone in this...