Gone too soon at 95 1/2. My darling darling died.
My hubby died a week ago here in our bedroom, receiving hospice care, and where I could "love him up". He had Alzheimer's for nearly 10 years which took away, among so many things, his fear of death. He was and will always be my everything. We were so lucky to tell each other all the time "I love you". To which he would often respond with "Aren't we a lucky boy and girll?" ❤️
He received hospice care for 17 days. He was eating 3 meals a day for 15 days. His vitals were great until the last day. I love and am grateful to morphine in a way I never imagined. We could be together in the home we both love. Sadly the news we would watch together was nearly unbearable. So we watched his faves Monk and Seinfeld, as well as The Andy Griffith Show. And in the last week's The Weather Channel. News without watching "the news". We had visitors. The day I told him we were receiving visits from 6 relatives nearly killed me. He asked "what's the occasion?".
Today I may not get out of bed. The news is just too horrific. Family has rallied. But we have too many Trumpers to be able to talk politics anymore. This place is the only safe space for me now. DU and carefully curated, escapist streaming services. Last night John Mullaney. Saturday we had a planned pool party for family and I was able to play a PBS Great Performances video version of Alice in Wonderland he was in from 1983. It was such a a lovely way to have him present for the gathering.
I just realized it was one week ago, to the minute that I lost him. This is so hard. He was so full of life. And I'm so lucky that horrible disease didn't take away his loving personality. He was adorable and always will be. I love him so much.
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He sounds like a wonderful person. RIP. 
So glad you had quality loving time at the end.
Condolences to you, your family and friends.
I hope knowing that DU is here for you may be of some comfort.
Alzheimer's is such a terrible disease. It is so obvious from your writing that you two shared a very special love. Please know that all of us at DU are here for you in whatever way we can be helpful. I hope that the wonderful memories of your of your hubby and knowing we care about you will give you some comfort and peace. 
I'm sure he is with you even now....
My deepest sympathies to you.
Based on the things you said he must have been a beautiful person. R.I.P. sweet soul.
And alongside my condolences, I agree that you are lucky he stayed his loving self and was able to communicate with you. My mother had Alzheimer's and was nonverbal for nearly a year before she died.
Thank you for sharing this portrait of him and of your shared love with us.
What can we say when the supernatural has robbed us of the significance of our mere mortal words? How can they touch the soul that gave life to the glorious being that is/was your hubby?
It sounds like he brought love wherever he was found, and you sharing a bit of that love with me now is especially heartwarming.
You never know who you’ll reach when you send a message, but your message has been especially meaningful to at least one person.
Thanks.
I lost my mom the first week of June - it was sudden. We are never really prepared.
My dad died in 2011 - and she was never really the same after that. So I really feel for you. 
As I age, I find myself wondering how long it’ll be before I’m there myself.
Just please know how many people here and elsewhere, online and not, who are either right there to hug you, or able to let our words and posts do it here.
You are loved and admired and cared about here. And these words will ALWAYS be here, too.
What wonderful memories you must have SleeplessinSoCal . May they comfort you and may the stories you’ll share always make you smile. Rest in peace .
I am in awe of it. I cannot imagine loving someone that much for that long. What a great loss.
I'm glad you can find some safety and comfort here at DU. Your lovely words about your husband brought tears to my eyes.
there is a gaping hole where once your darling darling filled the space with love. Now the good memories will be your cushion for awhile. My deepest sympathy for your incredible loss. Hang in there. Don't forget to take good care of yourself. You know he would want you to.
Jackie
so sorry for the loss of this great man hubby. He sounds like an angel....
To have that kind of love and connection is so very rare and even more special. We are all sending you our love and best hugs.
It's worth noting that Nathan Lane was Mouse. And it was so early in his career that he wasn't listed in the promo credits. We had so much fun following his career after this. We saw him be brilliant Off Broadway and On.
David was on Broadway in On Your Toes when also doing this production. Several of the dancers from OYT were in it.
Here's my Davey with Duke Ellingon's granddaughter...
That's my guy! ❤️
I am so sorry his life with you has come to an end. But he will always be with you.
Keep him in your heart, but live life as best you can. I am sure he would want you to,
My condolences and warmest of thoughts.
found your soulmate. Of course, I am so very sorry for your loss of your love.
be eternal.
that transcends space and time.
Nothing prepares us for the loss of a loved one.
My heart breaks for the pain of grief that you are feeling. Stay in that bed as long as you need.
There can be no doubt that the connection you shared transcends space and time. Something was created by your love that will never leave you.
What a glorious gift.
Stay encouraged in your grief. We love you.
❤️
Alzheimer's is a cruel, terrible disease. I'm glad that he was able to keep his personality until the end. May he Rest in Peace.
May he rest in radiant peace and joy which extends to you and may you be comforted by the tremendously wonderful feelings he stirred in you with your shared experiences
