I got the CAT scan and the bone scan

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last week, and I saw a plastic surgeon. My original plan was to have a mastectomy with no reconstruction, mostly because I'm an old lady and didn't want one floppy original breast and one pert fake breast. But my oncologist suggested I think about a bilateral mastectomy with reconstruction, and out of love for my husband, I decided to do that, despite my dislike of the idea of implants. My husband fully supported my no reconstruction--he is truly on my side in this--but I know he will be uncomfortable with a flat, scarred chest on one side. We have a shamefully active sex life, and his comfort is important to me.

And I do like the idea of having both breasts removed, not worrying about another recurrence.

So that's where I am now. Surgery is scheduled for the 23rd. Next week I have final appointments with the surgeon, plastic surgeon and the hospital. I think I've had all the tests I can get, and I'm ready to get this over with.