From both sides now

[TNNurse]

Soon will be the 11th anniversary of my mastectomy. That was followed by chemo, radiation and 5 years of estrogen blockers.
It was hard, there were times I thought another dose of chemo might actually kill me. Lost 50 lbs, passed out and fell in the bathroom from low blood pressure and had to have two transfusions. It was hard.

Now, my husband is beginning treatment for prostate cancer. It has not spread. He is taking testosterone blockers and will have radiation. He is angry, worried and yes, scared.

I knew that he struggled while I was sick. I knew it was hard on him.
Now, I understand how hard. I cannot fix anything, I try to make things better, but it is he who has to go through it.

If you are a cancer patient, it is normal to focus on yourself. You have to do that. But please focus on those who love you.

I now understand that it is incredibly hard to watch and not be able to fix anything.

Harder than I imagined.