I'm suffering with depression

[samplegirl]

13. I feel so lucky to have

All of you as I feel ok posting how O really feel.
When I cry I feel relief.
I go to bed an wake with acid reflux some even though I take meds for it.
Another close friend from DU is sick in the hospital.
He does dialysis three days a week. He's in the hospital now with a fib and the beginning of pneumonia. I've known him probably 25 years of my life and he's pretty sick and he never listens to a thing I say.
I just wish the election was over with. That's one less thing I would have to worry about every single night and every single day I wake up and that fat slob is still conning and trying to find a way to be president. I don't think I can live through another presidency with him. I worried myself sick when Covid came out. At age 20 I had Guillain barre syndrome I knew what it was like to be on a vent.
I still don't go around large crowds. I've had all my vaccinations but I've had Covid twice. I'm 66 years old and I don't feel like my immune system is that great I can't get the flu shot I can't get the RSV shot. I can't get the pneumonia shot, I do take vitamins to try to keep to myself I got a Trumper Neighbor on both sides of me.
I just feel so all alone and isolated at times.