I'm tired of being human.

[fujiyama]

1. I love your post

I have similar fleeting feelings of a sudden desire to conquer the world and then some minor slight or some odd trigger will deflate it and I'm too down to do anything because I can't focus on one task/goal.

I recently decided, fuck it - I'll start slow, at my own pace and we'll see where it goes. My two main goals are fitness related - eating better and getting some exercise. Previous times I started exercising, I would start way too fast and overdo it, be totally beat and sore, and then quickly lose motivation and quit.

This time I started with a walk of about a mile, and then a jog/walk of just under two miles. I'm amazed how much better a half hour of relatively non intensive exercise makes me feel. It's not a permanent fix. I'm still depressed, but I do have more energy throughout the day than I did before I did anything.

Sorry if my post is on a tangent. There are so many things I keep telling myself I want to do, but I never get around to any of them. It's funny but guitar has been one of those. Others include photography, painting, dancing, and yoga. Let's see if I get around to any of them!