This may be it

[OldBaldy1701E]

72. Hello

So, it has not been a great weekend, but oh well. The vehicle is repaired, if acting erratic. We have found information that this model has electrical issues and if this is so, I have no idea what do to about it. We cannot repair such an issue, nor can we replace the vehicle. I know my husband is now scared of his own car because it has left him stranded twice. He will have to drive it tomorrow night to get to work, and I will not sleep a wink waiting for the phone to ring. There is nothing I can do about it. But, caveat poor people. I now have something wrong with my heel and as usual, my personal switchboard operator... excuse me, my doctor... has once again referred me for something that is not covered enough for me to do it. I cannot walk much, and after the quadruple bypass they said they wanted me to walk as often as I can. Not that I can walk much in -10F weather anyway. I can already tell things are starting to go back to pre-quadruple bypass because my hands keep 'falling asleep'. I am so tired of all of this. Everyone keeps saying things like "Go out and do this thing" or 'go to this website and fill out all that stuff' or 'start this or that'. There are times that I can barely walk to the mailbox. There are times that I can barely think about taking the handfuls of pills I have to take. And it is not just the physical limitations that are the cause of this. I am in serious straits here. My husband is completely incapable of dealing with my situation, so I usually don't tell him about it. He just assumes that things are somewhat okay. Because he is under enough stress and shame from having to go back to work for someone who all but castrated him the last time he was employed there, I try not to tell him what I have been going through. Because I am incompatible with the people up here, I am cursed to be alone. This place has definitely made my anxiety and depression so much worse. And, I am stuck here. I don't know even know why I am sitting here babbling all of this on a website where no one knows me. It seems that detached acquaintances are all I can hope for anymore. Not that anyone would want to be around me anyway. (Which is obvious as I am sitting here alone.) Have a good week everyone. Hopefully someone will.