Rx includes lots of snuggles with all the fur babies and only doing the things that feel good or have a positive resolve. It's kind of a dark time, both Mercury and Pluto are in the depths of retrograde, it's hard to imagine things going well most of the time right now. This, too, shall pass.
Having had a once normal family turned dysfunctional to the nth degree, I can relate to your depressed state of mind. Four weeks ago was the anniversary of my older sister's passing, she killed herself; the passing of the love of my life; many a significant loss finds an anniversary at the end of July for me including the loss of favorite pets. It's mind bending.
Just unplug from all the grief, focus on your good deeds and celebrate that you have a positive effect on all those kitties and, at the same time, give many in your DU family a touch of realness and love and sweetness and compassion. To many of us, that is far more than you might imagine, my dear.
You do far more for so many that you underestimate your worth, I would hope that you will be able to reflect on that positive energy when you feel down about those whom you had no choice to have experiences with as a family. Sure, our biological (and their attachments) family members abuse and damage us in so many ways, some intentionally, some unintentionally in pursuit of their own peace or whatever. Their paths will not always parallel our own and we don't have to suffer postpartum depression over them, even the ones we once held in esteem.
Anyway, I hope you can release those bonds that drag you down and find more joy to replace the depression.
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