I'm on a hunting trip, forgive me.

[Tobin S.]

7. Maybe she has a plan...maybe she fucked up and hopes you'll forget about it.

Who knows if she won't tell you? I'd press her on the issue and let her know how you feel. She should know how important trust is in the patient/therapist relationship and I think she owes you an explanation.

At the same time, she might be right about your father to some extent. It must have been very difficult growing up with him as your father and I wouldn't discount the possibility of there being long term ramifications of your relationship with him including the idea that he is in large part responsible for your illness.

People think you're wimpy if you blame others for your problems, but that's not the case if it's the truth! The trick to the whole deal is how you resolve matters after you've pointed the finger and laid the blame where it belongs. You can acknowledge that people did bad stuff to you, work through it, and come out the other side whole without saying a word to anybody but your therapist. I had a rough childhood, but I've been able to process what happened to me and how that affected me without any arguments or show-downs or even saying anything at all about it to my family. I live 50 miles away from them now and they know things have changed, but I dealt with the drama and the hate without involving them at all. I was grown and I had the ability to shape my own world, I just had to acknowledge and deal with those who had molded me to that point to move on into my own...and it was all in my head.