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[Denninmi]

7. You don't have to be sorry.

You're just researching and reporting, and doing a great job of it at that.

Well, at least I got one laugh out of it - good old Oklahoma, one of the big "gun culture" states -- prohibits a knowing transfer to a person who is "mentally ill or emotionally unbalanced" -- that is probably half of their population.

Yes, it's very upsetting. I don't LIKE being treated like garbage, either by my own government or by the "other side".

It's hard enough keeping some shred of dignity with my initial little, shall we say, "problems" -- this just compounds it. I want ALL of this to go away, and it won't, now or ever.

I wish they would just do whatever they are going to do to me and get it over with, it would be better than going day after day waiting for the ax to fall.