Hello. Going through a rough period of my life.

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11. Thank you very much for the kind reply...

In truth I believe I'm running from my own negative self image of myself. I know factually that I'm a good person with positive qualities and some successes but deep down there's a part of me that hates myself to some large degree. I'm not sure why this is but I believe it to be true and among several of the core reasons behind my problems.

As you said I have spent a large part of my life measuring myself against the success of others. And the yard stick I use is that of perfectionism. This is an old and hard habit to break.

As for medications I was prescribed Xanax for the short term amelioration of the worst of my anxieties at my last job before I quit. Xanax is in the class of benzodiazepines like Ativian and it too seems to work wonders on anxiety. But benzodiazepines are only meant for short term treatment of anxiety and not for long term chronic usage. They bring with them the risk of addiction and dependence.