More on Saturn in Scorpio

[kimmerspixelated]

5. Amazing.

Last edited Wed Oct 10, 2012, 09:08 PM - Edit history (1)

Even before I read this post and the one by Felix I was actually remarking to myself about the vast emptiness I feel. But of course it's so much more than that.

Here's the thing, the last two years haven't been the greatest, marriage,blah,blah,blah, but at least I felt more connected to the spiritual aspect of myself. Oh, God, How I miss not having to explain everything about what I'm doing coming and going. I am feeling like I may never get my own place. I think Im having a panic attack as I write.

Moving away to be near family, I have felt comforted and loved but also criticized, suffocated and much like I've moved in with the worst traits of both my parents in one-my sister. I haven't felt very creative, and big non plus for me!

I had so many other thoughts to add..I .. I mean it's always hopeful right? I've got a consultant looking over a business plan that would help me be SO me! Giant fingers crossed for funding.

All the pain that my daughter's gone through with this move makes my goals seem really empty though..
Like what's the point of any of it, if hearts are broken beyond repair, but things always change,I know.. but yes for now, I got a major big vast emptiness going on, like no matter what job I get or what house I may move into, I may be still lost in a fog I can't fathom.that I'm looooost......

I wonder if I hadn't made the move where I would be....Maybe less lost..

Sorry about the whining..