Notice how the division is increasing between beauty and ugliness?

[Fire Walk With Me]

8. Part of the reason I post these messages

is self-work...I tend to outrage, which is useless unless directed intelligently. It's also less and less of a good idea in the positive energies...and note that my message is in duality. I could be much more skillful with those words, and not cause anyone to feel upset or left out. I'll have to work at that.

Regarding your work, I'm sure you've looked into doing it yourself, freelance...is there another avenue for your talents, even one to which you've specifically not been attracted? Meanwhile, spend time with your favorite happy people, doing happy things together. Purchase all of your favorite happy music and film, etc. Build that muscle so it becomes a habit, not a struggle. I have to work at it too, trust me