☦ Orthodox Christian giving God Glory for His Saint, Anthony of Padua!

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4. Please forgive this belated response from me.

I couldn't find this by a search. So I reviewed all 'my' posts and did find it.

You show such lovingkindness to ask about my state of being.

It's not good. I don't know what to do. It may be mostly physical that leads to my state of mind being affected. I don't feature spiraling down into a depression. My Faith is being put to a gigantic test.

Stuff just keeps coming at me that I alone can correct. Not having my husband to rely on stinks. We got on pretty well. Didn't see things the same at times, but he at least was my sounding board.

People that I sorta expected to bother with me at least occasionally are silent.

I've been a strong person up till this. I give them a pass bc they could be having it rougher than I got it.

Sick up to here and beyond of much in the world. How could people not be?

I should be doing better than this.

I sleep for 10-11 hours and wake up like I worked all night. I'm so tired all the time.

I was diagnosed with Epstein-Barr antibodies in '85. I've felt crappy since the mid 70's. All doc visit printouts: "Extreme fatigue." "Extreme fatigue." Doc said back then, "It's academic." Now it's a valid disorder that DSSI considers for benefits. Stress, infections, over activity brings it out again.

Now I'm so sorry for over shooting the runway here.

Thanx for listening,
sprink ♥️