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[Ron Obvious]

12. So sorry...

Oh, Desert Flower, I'm so sorry. My wife's my best friend too, so I empathise with you..

I'm generally a very upbeat, positive person who's frankly been ridiculously blessed by fate, but I've been so angry lately... I don't recognise myself anymore at times.

I share some of your thoughts. My sister's funeral was attended by a lot of people, as she had so many friends. While smiling at everyone there, suddenly, a very unwelcome thought struck me: "How many people do you think will attend your funeral?" Virtually nobody, I realised, and was more saddened than I thought I'd be.

I read a quote once that resonated with me, although I can't remember who said it: "If permitted to look into the book of his life. even the happiest, most well-adjusted child would just curl up and die".

Too negative for me, but I understand it now.

Take good care of yourself. There's so much beauty and love out there, but I'm afraid you can only find it yourself...