I think I figured out why my mom's death has been especially hard.

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23. Our brother is on the koolaid too

We got pretty close about 5 years ago during his health issues, when trump was in office. We ignored political stuff. But now he won’t answer my sister’s phone calls. She is very hurt about it. I’m too beat up from other stuff to even try.

Maybe best to spend time on other people who need and want friendship, and let life surprise you some day with unexpected blessings. When you least expect it, good stuff arrives.