RIP Ian

[demwing]

6. Can't donate, lost my star, can't post there

But here I can, for now.

I wish that rule would change... this week has been very bad for me - I think I need a professional's help. I'm healing, but I'm also sad all the damn time. Like I wrote, this took a piece of my soul. I feel broken, and have little confidence that I will ever get over that. My performance at work is sufferring, and I can't remember simple things that I should - like fixing my team's time cards, or the names of movies I saw last night. I'm stuck because I can't afford a therapist, and I make too much to get Medicaid.

Thanks for the concern though, it helps a little to have a method and platform to discuss these things. My boss doesn't give a damn, and my surviving son is only 16, and seeing me sad just makes him sad.