"Life Goes On"

[PasadenaTrudy]

3. I lost

my mom and my only sister within two months of one another. This was just over 3 yrs ago. Dad died 27 yrs ago, and I have my brother left. I'm still trying to figure out how to navigate the world without my sis. I wasn't close to my mom, so I don't miss her at all. I just turned 50, dealing with menopause...argh, too much sometimes. I've suffered from major depression all my life and am currently seeing a shrink and on meds. I just don't see much reason to live often, but I keep plodding on. I try to focus on things I'm grateful for and the small joys around me - - flowers, trees, birds, my dog, my partner. But, boy this is a tough one.

My dear friend who has been like a mom to me all of my life is nearing death now too. Alzheimer's and cancer. She only weighs 50 lbs and looks like a concentration camp victim. So hard to see, but I make it a point to just sit near her and talk to her.