I find myself really wanting a wedding

[EnergizedLib]

23. Here's my experiences

The whole it’ll happen when you least expect it - there is some truth to that. I met both of my partners I had on OkCupid. I can’t say I was expecting what happened to happen, but I was still putting myself out there and making progress towards what I wanted.

My first girlfriend - I wasn’t expecting anything when we first started chatting, but right before we met, I had a strong feeling years of toil and anguish of never having had a girlfriend was going to be washed away. I was right.

My second partner, it was harder to get a read on her because we talked but didn’t flirt so much before we met. Then things got really good and intimate for the month we saw each other.

Then I’ve had really good vibes about other women I met who dumped me after the first date.

So, I don’t know. I do know for or two I did stop looking, didn’t focus on that and was content in my career and still got no attention from women. I did have a date with somebody I canceled due to it being a small town and who her ex was, I didn’t want it being awkward.