I miss my Buddy

[BigmanPigman]

15. After each of my 2 babies died

I was and still am trying to cope. It NEVER gets easier for me. Everyone grieves in their own way and I know this is especially true for me and my doggies.

I am very lucky that I still gets visits from my little girl who died 3 1/2 years ago. My first dog visited for about two weeks and even visited my friend as well. It always cheers me up and I keep a notepad on my nightstand to document it before I fall back to sleep and forget it happened. On one of her first visits she was with my dad who died a year before she did. They both were telling me they are keeping each other company and will be there when I join them.

If there are no dogs in heaven then it is not heaven as far as I am concerned. The thing is is that I have been an Atheist since I was 12 and these are not religious experiences, just plain old matter of fact experiences. I can't explain it. It is just what I see and hear. Simple as that.