Is it me?

[Dorothy V]

1. As an old retired nurse ...

I had my share of surgery patients, mostly on a neurosurgery floor. Some patients were deeply spiritual, some scared shitless. some resigned. I put you in the spiritual category, of course.
Myself, by the time I had my third abdominal surgery, I was just tired of the whole thing.
Overcoming my alcoholism and my own personality has been my spiritual experience. I keep it close. I do operate out of it, but outside of meetings with other sober drunks, I don't talk about it much. Mostly, I just do what it prompts me to do. Not always easy, I still want to operate out of my cynicism more often than I like.
By the by, I have 34 years continuous sobriety, so Something is working! Working through me and not just on me.
To keep it, you got to give it away.