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Mental Health Support

FirstLight

(14,829 posts)

27. Still here, still breathing, still trying to heal

Reply to FirstLight (Original post)

Mon Feb 10, 2025, 07:14 PM

Feb 10

You know I realized, it's only been a couple of months since my ex tried to actually kill me. Maybe I need to cut myself some slack. I feel like this administration is continuing that feeling of being an abusive relationship.. and the helplessness the fear ...the desire to just roll over and give up.

I'm trying to get a grip. I managed to do a little bit of cleaning today. I'm so judgmental of myself and what I can and cannot do. And when I'm in a funk like this, it just snowballs into self-abuse.
Yeah I've got a good therapist, but even she can't fix what else is going on inside my head when she's not around.

I have to figure out how to pull myself up by the bootstraps, and maybe today is not the day for that. Maybe it's okay that I did just a couple of things on my list. Maybe it's okay for me to just be not okay for a little while...

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Why bother? ...it's all gonna fucking burn anyway... [View all] FirstLight Feb 8 OP

I get it. I just don't think you will lose health coverage, if for no other reason than plenty of GOPers are in same Silent Type Feb 8 #1

I agree, I don't think they will take healthcare away. LiberalLoner Feb 8 #3

A monk running from a tiger comes to a precipice.... WheelWalker Feb 8 #2

Beautiful answer! LiberalLoner Feb 8 #4

💙💙💙 sheshe2 Feb 8 #5

I'm 62 and disabled by MS. And wondering if the cancer I was treated for last year will come back soon or not. I just LiberalLoner Feb 8 #6

And during these darkest of days, we should always remember....we are not alone! Missoula Coyote Choir... LiberalLoner Feb 8 #8

Thank you FirstLight Feb 8 #9

If there are only 'bits' to be had... OldBaldy1701E Feb 9 #19

I'm so sorry. To explain, I grew up being abused in pretty much every way. I never felt safe. LiberalLoner Feb 10 #21

And, I apologize for how harsh that now sounds. OldBaldy1701E Feb 10 #23

No worries! 💙💙💙🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗. I hope your day is a good one too! Although I am freaking out today, LiberalLoner Feb 10 #24

The last few days have been. OldBaldy1701E Feb 10 #25

They've been rough, that's the truth. LiberalLoner Feb 10 #26

Get a pencil and paper and write down 5 times in your life that were your proudest moments. multigraincracker Feb 8 #7

I know what you mean! BigmanPigman Feb 8 #10

Love all of you here, so much. I just love you guys and I am glad you are here. ❤️❤️❤️❤️ LiberalLoner Feb 8 #11

I feel the same way. The support forums have become so much Mike 03 Feb 9 #14

FirstLight kozar Feb 8 #12

Man do I empathize. Try to hang on until spring. Mike 03 Feb 9 #13

Hey you, just checking in on you, how are you feeling today? 🤗💙 LiberalLoner Feb 9 #15

workin' on it... trying to motivate to shoft my surroundings... FirstLight Feb 9 #16

Even just one little thing can start a cycle of positivity! LiberalLoner Feb 9 #17

Hey I wanted to ask you, have you ever noticed that in movies, when they have candles, LiberalLoner Feb 9 #18

"I'm 55, disabled, and pretty much broke." OldBaldy1701E Feb 9 #20

Hey, FirstLight and everyone else, how are you doing today? Please check in! 💙💙💙 LiberalLoner Feb 10 #22

Still here, still breathing, still trying to heal FirstLight Feb 10 #27