Messy stuff.

[mopinko]

2. yeah

i'm in a real good place at the moment, but that call can be so loud.
my marriage is breaking up, the saddest thing is that now that the weight has lifted, things seems so much clearer. i really think hubby is borderline. things that felt hurtful and mean now i kinda can see hurting him. i think he loves me the best he can. the sweet times were so delicious. his urge does not make him happy. it makes him miserable. prolly gonna ruin his old age, too.

i saw this side of him very early, and fought it, and saw it differently through the years. but i never really put it up there with the place that my depressions put me. for that matter, i didn't put my depression in it's place.
it all seems so real. except when it isnt .

but in the end, yeah, i ended up in a good place. so, what would i change? hard to say.