I have never felt akin to Atheists nor believers

[state of stupid]

21. you are most likely agnostic

Whether you hard agnostic or soft agnostic is hard to tell. I am an agnostic that is
neither hard nor soft. If you examine what that means you can form your path on
what you believe. My position is that the proof of God is not knowable because I
cannot prove it one way or the other so I take a neutral position. I like so many had
my religious experience at a very young age determined after less than a year and
three different churches that it was not for me. They did prove to me miracles did
indeed happen. All those darling angelic perfect examples of Godly child did that.
I went to school with a lot of them and I just could not grasp how they could get
away with all the things they did that my father would have seen thru instantly and
gone into his kid you got some serious issues mode and give me a long grueling
come to Jesus discussion. When I decided to get the hell away it was my belief that
maybe some were what I call a faithful follower and the rest pharisees. My father and
mother both believed but not once did they go to church, preach scripture, tell me
about the 10 commandments, pray or anything else. As far as the pharisees you
can read the book and see what Jesus thought about them. I will simply paraphrase
the cherry on top when spoke his mind to them. You are like your father the Devil
who was a murderer from the beginning and has no truth in him for he is a liar
and the father of them. That is not something a believer wants on their resume or
yelp review. How did I get to agnostic is a long story. I was looking for a station to
listen to on the radio and hit a station with a preacher having rant and he said something
that caught my attention, so I listened to hear what he was saying. Basically, he was ranting
about preachers telling people what the bible said. Twenty preachers taking one verse
and explaining it 20 different ways and none being correct in what they were saying.
Then saying do not trust anyone who tells you what it means, not even him. He said my job
is not to tell you what means but to show you how to study it and form your own conclusions.
So I did what suggested and that is how I decided I was an agnostic. What I did as far
as the bible was if it sounded like a man using God to justify what he was saying I
threw it away. If I could use what I read and apply that to the practical side not the
spiritual side then keep it and use it in the practical sense.
Example: You shall know the truth and the truth will set you free. Practical sense:
The more truth I know the freer I am, but be warned just because you do not like the
the truth you either accept it or get run over by it. So is it Godly wisdom, common sense,
or just Joe the drunk, living in his cardboard box, behind Lou's diner. I will take truth and
wisdom wherever I find it and use for the path in life I choose to take as an agnostic. If this
helps you on your journey glad I could help, if not throw it away sorry I could not help, if
you are not sure put on a shelf and think about it and sooner or later you will make a
choice on it. Your right to choose not my right to dictate. I think I have ranted long enough.
So, until next time I wish you well.